Tuesday, February 2, 2016

mirror/unmirror

I'm less worried about you throwing me away
than I am about you losing me
when it's too dark for a shadow
too late to search the
spaces between words
what's the difference wondering whether
something will begin or end


or wondering
where this will go now
It means nothing and why I care
is all just in our minds
so we try to make it into something nice
if we have time

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9 comments:

zonedin said...

I think I've reached a different place in my life. As if I'm just winding down on my dreams, not likely to ever work out. It seems to be a big enough thrill now to clean out a closet or paint my bedroom. I hope the thrill of living is not really gone yet. I'm hoping for a new phase to enter. At least I am still happy with my body. I have great genes! ( except for the scoliosis)

rivercat said...

when one door closes another opens so its always good until you finally pass away.That reminds me of those revolving doors i remember in some offices in NYC. I never liked them so I dont mean taht lol

zonedin said...

I just dumped my whole Facebook account of seven years! I can't believe how good I feel! It's amazing. Just like that...poof. No more pressure to not miss a thing. I can miss everything and not be judged for not saying "Happy Birthday" or clicking "like" on something someone posts. There's more to it than just that. I'm also freeing myself from all the ability of my father and his new fourth wife to hurt me. I'm done! Been through it too many times. I'm free as feather blowing in the wind!:-))

rivercat said...

i havent looked at facebook in about 3 months. I think its too creepy.

zonedin said...

Well I don't miss it. I feel free. Now I just need to be free. My job keeps me tied down. I would love to take off on a really long road trip and don't tell anyone where I am going. The calendar just keeps filling up, I don't know when I'm supposed live and just be. Hope your days are good! I like to hear about other peoples' adventures:-)

rivercat said...

i started doing yoga. thats not really exciting or adventurous but it is very humbling. I am not flixible so i cant do the positions the right way. maybe someday. i hope it helps cure my hunchback too over time like the tennis.

zonedin said...

It's amazing how difficult simple stretching moves can be. My scoliosis makes bending certain ways difficult and I look like I'm in good shape, so the instructor always thinks I'm being lazy. I have to blurt "I have a degenerating spine" I went to a class today that was called "Yoga-lates" it was hard, but I feel better now:)

rivercat said...

i got a big exercise ball too for days i cant deal with the praying dog or whatever

zonedin said...

My favorite position is pigeon pose. Yoga balls are fun to keep around the house. You don't have to sit still when you're watching tv. I roll over backwards on the ball and watch upside down. Feels good:-)